My treatment starts tomorrow. Still can’t believe I have cancer!
I’ve had to look in the mirror a few times and actually tell myself I have it.
Why! Why me! How did I get it? I can ask a thousand questions but none of them will help. So reality sets in. And I have to deal with it.
I have my special cream ready R1 and R2. R1 I apply directly after the radiation treatment each day – it is a cooling gel. I let that soak in for 20 minutes then I apply R2- a sort of moisturising cream which I apply a few times a day.
My first radiation treatment was supposed to start at 7.10am tomorrow and the chemo treatment at 9. I received a call from the scheduling lady today asking for the radiation treatment to be delayed to 3.15pm. So I have resheduled the chemo treatment to 11.45.
Was looking forward to a relaxed romantic dinner with my boyfriend tonight. He was going to cook for me and we were to share a bottle of wine. (I would have just had a sip!) But sadly other priorities came up and the mood is not right. So it is a night which is not so relaxed and I feel I just want to sit down and cry.
Tomorrow is another day. I have no doubt I will have my treatment and all will be fine in the universe. I will live to tell the tale. And hey, it will be one less treatment I will need to have.
So to all of you – have a glass of wine tonight in my honour and keep me in your throughts.